Thoughts....Jan 29, 2012

so I haven't really updating like I feel that I normally should and it is starting to get the best of me. I completely hate my life right now and all that I want to do is curl in the bed and sleep my pains away. I am going to the point where going to work is starting to be the biggest chore and I hate that. I just want all this pain to be gone and there doesn't seem to be anyone to help me. I just want peace in my life, is that ever going to happen...it doesn't seem likely and that really hurts.

Living with ED fuckin sucks but there is a peace there that I am not ready to quite let go of yet.