I'm so exhausted...I have been trying to get some rest, but it is not helping. It seems that no matter what, things will never be good enough, things just seem to be spinning out of control and I feel that there is really nothing much more than I can do, but hold on tight for the ride and hope that I do not fall off.

Still no change in my eating, and it is really starting really bother me. In a way it makes me feel that I have control over something for once. And the psychology master's candidate student, knows that I'm really just fooling myself. I'm not in control over anything. Unless you count that my actions are causing me to have control over how sick, I will be if I don't get a grip and fast.

~*Beautiful.Spirit*~