At all cost....

Lately, I have been really terrible body image and I am not really sure where to direct my anger and frustration, other than placing the blame on myself. I have started taking diet pills and water pills and lax again. That is the only thing that is helping me to feel better about all the crap that's happening in my life right now. I want to just dispear and at this point I am doing what I have to do to get there at all cost.