Fustration.

Feeling really sad and, I'm liking this feeling and I don't know what to do about it. I have restricted my caloric in take for dinner and that bothers me..does it bother me to the point that I want to do something about it..no. This scares me. I have been at this for at about 5 weeks and I thought I would be at a different place at this point and I'm not and that scares me. Maybe I'm placing to much importance on trying to be perfect but that is the only thing that I can allow myself to do. That is the only thing that I feel that I have control over right now ans that really bothers me. I could use a hug right now, I feel so lonely. I want this feeling gone. Will it be gone.