Nov. 20th

I'm not sure how much more of this sh*t I am going to be able to take. Last week I emailed my therapist and told her that I wasn't going to be seeing her anymore. The reason being is that after my last week inIOP I felt that she has the head member of my treatment team, completely failed me. I lost the ability to trust her. Trusting my therapist is very important to me because I have such a hard time trusting people especially with my past. I did what I could to trust her. But I just couldn't. She never took the time to discuss the things that I needed to address, or the things that I may have brought in the autobiography of my eating disorder.instead she place the conteNts in my file. She wanted to discuss with me, the idea of moving to a supportive living home. I kept telling her no that this was something that I didn't want to discuss. She didn't care. Great now I am the one that has to leave therapy feeling like nothing got accomplished.

I struggling so much to get exchanges in. I'm doing what I should by reaching or to supportive people. I have a few people that are there. But how do I feel comfortable reaching out to others when I know that we are all struggling? I can't...now that I don't have that therapist relationship anymore , I have really set myself up to fail. I am failure that seems to be the only thing that I do correct.