Terrified

I'm struggling so much right now...........and it f'ckin sucks. I finally had a productive meeting with C. and she said that she hears me and feels my pain. She finally wants to do another assessment to see if I need a higher level a care. I think I do...but I'm scared....what if I have another school year like last year and I am not able to return to work until Jan. I feel that I'm at a lost of what to do and it scares me. I know the right thing to do is to start a higher level of care and take things the one step and time and stay positive but man I am so scared. C wants me to tell her what level of care I need. I think that I may need day. I'm so scared and I am not sure I know what to do....help