The last few days have been nothing but this big challenge that I am not willing ot fight anymore. I can't take this anymore. My eating disorder voice is screaming at me and I am listening because I feel that my therapist isn't. The only thing that she seems concerned with is my meeting exchanges. That is the one thing that I could care less about right now. I actually want to get a better understanding of why I am doing the things that I am doing and she isn't helping me get there. She is just making me feel so much guilt for not meeting exchanges and that is not helping. I hate this life and I am tried of trying to figure this shit out by myself............