I'm feeling really out of sorts and disconnected from everyone. I really want to just sleep all day. Things are starting to get really difficult. I don't want to do anything. I am forcing myself not to change my schedule too much. Don't want to cause worry. So I am still doing all the normal things that I do, like school and work. But after those things are done, I just go into my room and shut the door. I often cry myself to sleep, it is exhausting pretending that everything is well, when everything around me is falling apart.

 I have been having a difficult time with meals, so I have been eating as much as I can and eating with others, and what I don't eat in meals I suppliment with ensure. That is what I have to do for now. meals are just to difficult right now.