I hate this thoughts that I am having. I need them to just stop. The thoughts that I am having are so paralyzing, literally. I have been isolating from friends and barely speaking to my roommate when she is here. I spend a lot of time in my room, that is where I feel safe. I am doing my best to get back on track, I am back to log meals and exchanges and I am also back to planning my meals out. I realized that I was spending too much of my time worrying about what my roommate was eating and not enough time on myself. Why is it so easy to get lost in other people when we all have so much shit going on in our lives. I  know by me focusing on others it is only a distraction from myself and my problems that  I don't want to face, and at this present time that is a lot going on that I'd rather not deal with.