I am really at the point where I do not care at about anything and that is fine with me. I have been using laxatives and diuretics for the past 2 weeks and I am okay with that. I love the feeling of being empty. If I must eat something, I might as well take a laxative behind it, it makes things better. I feel that taking laxatives makes the food issues so much easier. Such is my life and at this point I don't even know what that is anymore. I love feeling of being empty and pure.