I'm sad, and I feel that there is nothing that I can do about it. I went to see a therapist yesterday. She is cool and all, but I get the feeling that I am not able to talk to her about what is going on with me. I think my most challenge issue is my eating disorder. I can't talk to her about. I feel that since I am black and she is white, there is no way that she is going to understand anything that I go through. I understand that eating disorders aren't about colors, they are about the emotions and the anxiety that a person feels and the need for the person to be in control. That's not the entire thing, but that is a start. But anyway....I feel that no one is going to understand why I have the ED.I don't lok like I have a eating disorder. But trust me, I do. I have lost about 23 pounds in the past month and I have been done so by restricting my food intake or purging the small about of food that I allow myself to eat. No one know this though. There are a few people that think I have starting seeing a weight loss doctor and that is partly true. I go to get the B12 and Lipo Disolve shots and the medications. I tale a fluid pill and, a sugar pill and a appetite suppressant. There are a few people that I know that if they know the things that I actually am doing, I would be in a world of trouble. I just feel that this is the only thing that is going to make me happy and help me to love myself. I don't have a family, per se. But I have awesome friends.