thoughts

Still feeling the same way that I did yesterday. But a part of me feels that it may get better before it gets worse. I actually took the time to read over my treatment plan and now I feel that I should not have done that. I googled my DX scores. I learned that one of my Dx scores indicates that I have Eating Disorder Otherwise Specified, which basically means to my understand, that I don't fit the all the medical criteria for either anorexia or bulimia. I know that I have a issue with my eating habits. For example lately, I have not been eating after 330pm. I know that this is not healthy, but this the only way that I feel that I am able to control some part of my life. I feel so over whelmed and stressed and I won't talk to anyone about it because I feel that either no one cares or that I am bothering them in some way by telling them what is bothering me. I just keep telling people that I'm fine. And as of right now, so far so good. Not sure what I would do if people would start questioning me. I like the fact that I am finally starting to lose weight and I don't want to be forced to stop because someone feels that I have to or need to.