Struggling

Struggling it seems just to make it minute by minute. Just tired. I'm fustrated. I have been working really hard not to restrict my caloric intake, but that seems to be getting harder by the day. For instance, today I had a string cheese for breakfast and 160z of water. No lunch, was running around in meetings and other job related things. I normally eat lunch at 12pm. before I know it, it was 1:45pm. And I decided against lunch, due to not want to force myself to eat anything, figured that I was getting off at 3, so what was the point, I "could" grab something once arriving home. Well, I did not. Instead came home, rested for about a hour and then decided on going to the gym. I spent 3 hours there. I think a lot this onset has been triggered by 2 things: 1st Last week my Dr gave me the DX of Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified.(EDNOS). Which basically for me is: I don't fit the entire qulifications for either anorexia or bulimia. Which truthfuly doesn't surprise me. I restrict often. I just can't see myself eating 1,200 calories a day. That is a heck of a lot of food. No Thank You!!! Eating is one thing that cause me a lot of anxiety.

2. I went to the Dr on Saturday and she also changed my medications. She uped all of my meds!!! :~( I asked her why and she told me that I know why. Well a part of me does. Yes, I know you asked me to keep a food log, which I did. But, I'm guessing you did not like the fact that there weren't many days with in the past 2 weeks that indicate that I was eating anything. I know this seems to bother you. But, my question for you is, if it does not bother me, why should it bother you? I feel fine. I didn't lose any weight these past 2 weeks, so I must be doing something right. Although, these really bothers me. Once I get to the target weight that I have set for myself then maybe, somethings will be diffirent. Until then, the only thing that I'm seeking is some sort of peace and understanding.