Treament.....

I'm feeling extremely exhausted. I have been for the last week. I told Colleen about it yesterday. She said that it would make sense. I have been attending therapy 3X a week for the past 2 weeks. She said that sense I am starting to trust my treatment team and being more open and honest, I'm going to be tired. She also said that if I weren't tired after this past weeks she would be concerned.

I thought that at the end of the week, I would be going to a higher level of care. But Colleen feels that because there are so many barriers that I need to work on, she feels that continuing with therapy 3x a week is good. I'm really trying to trust the team and go with their recommendations, but it's so hard.

I calculated the amount of money that I needed to allocate to treatment for the next 2 weeks and it came to 222.00 That is with 6 therapy sessions and 1 nutrition session. Just seeing those numbers make me heart feel as if it is going to job out of my chest. That's 444. Dollars a month and soon, that is going to be more. My isurance company adds 5 dollars more after 30 individual sessions. So, that is going to bring my total to 180 every 2 weeks plus 72 every 2 weeks for nutrition. With a total of 252 that I give renfrew every 2 weeks. This just makes things in possible. Because between rent and renfrew and cell, cable, electricity, I feel that I am never going to get caught up on bills. I know that this feeling is just temporary, but I just don't see a end in sight.