Weekend Thoughts....

I am sitting her at work with not much to do because the kids are on spring break and I decied to come in to get some work done. Not like that I have much to do, but it helps me to get up and get my day started knowing that I have to be somewhere at a certain time. So, I came in the same time as if the kids were here. There isn't much different, at home it would be quiet and here it's quiet, I am just fully dressed and starting my day at my desk with a book and a diet pepsi. :)

My weekend was pretty good. Saturday I went to Baltimore to the Renfrew Recovery workshop and I have to say that I am very proud of the turn out. The girls from Renfrew-Bethesda, were there in full force. It was great to see and spend time Julianne and Kelly. We had lunch in the inner harbor. That was nice. We went to a sushi bar for lunch and that was very interesting. The witress was really pushy and agressive. She kept bring drinks to the table way before the other drinks were finished. And she even brought me those plastic chop stick holders because she felt that I need help to learn how to hold a chop stick. Please, lady just because I don't hold a chop stick the way that you do, doesn't mean that I am doing something wrong. Just sayin.

I'm getting to the point where I am getting to be fed up with treatment, but I keep trying to remind myself that this is only temporary and if I just do what I need to do, things will be alright. But at times it doesn't seem like that is possible. I get paid on Friday and it seems that, that entire check is already accounted for between rent and treatment and the next 2 weeks are going to be the same way. Sometimes, I wish I could just quiet but I am scared that if I do that then, I know that I will die and I don't want that and for some reason that isn't enough for me to do what I need to do to be healthy.