It is so easy to return to the way things used to be.....

I'm really having a difficult time with symptoms. I did not sleep well and I know that I had to come to work today. I did not want to allow the snow to stop me from coming in. I think a lot of that had to do with email correspondence that I had with the principal. But anyway, that is neither here nor there. I did not get any sleep last night and the first thing that I did this morning was to have a diet coke and some diet pills. I took the diet pills because I knew they were going to give me the energy that I needed to make it through the day. They were also going to stop the hunger. My hunger and fullness cues are out of tone with my body anyway so it is not really like that make a bit of a difference.

I know that I shouldn't be using symptoms, but that is the only way that I can seem to cope with anything that is going on in my life right now. I wonder if Colleen got in touch with my mom yet.